Thankful

Sunday Jus and I went to visit his dad and some cousins in Iowa,La. I had been there before but never inside that house. They live in a trailer that literally is being held up by random 2x4s and logs they have cut from trees. They have nothing but there is crap everywhere. They have no hot water and there are two adults, Justin's dad, two twenty somethings and a 3yr old that live in this house, only two people have jobs. The minute I walked in I was so thankful for my cute and clean one bedroom apartment and I was no longer embarrased by my dirty dishes.

For those I have not told Justin's dad is a very bad alcoholic. I didn't even realize how bad until yesterday. After sitting there and visiting for a bit Justin and I realized just how unhappy he was living over there. He will be staying with us for a few days at least. I just want him to have a hot meal and a hot shower. He is such a bad cig. and beer addict that I had to stop twice on the way home so he could smoke and "down one". After the second time Justin told him he would have to go the remaining 20minutes without. He started to shake but never said anything. He is a great man, very nice and respectful, just drunk. I really wish Justin and I could help him more (rehab or something) but at least I know he is safe at my house and clean.

We did give him a limit on how much he would have to drink and smoke a day but I dont know how long that will last him. When I left him this morning at 7:20 he had already started drinking (and washing my dishes). I will go back at luch to check on him. Just pray for God's will.

Also, I think we may be offending some of Justin's family with our style of wedding. When they heard about just some of the details they started saying stuff like, "Are you sure us lower class can come", "Hope you bought enough beer to help us fit in", "Do you think we can afford to be there for such and event", "Well we don't want to embarrase yall". I dont know what exactly they ment by it but it really hurt my feelings. This is not to impress them this is for Justin and I. and by them thinking I didn't want them there so that is why I made it a nice wedding sort of made me mad. That and his cousin putting down the Catholic church but that is a whole other blog.


Happy Monday!