She'll be comin' 'round the Mountain...

Or the hills of the FL panhandle in my case. That's right folks my MIL is moving in. In the course of 3 months of being married, two of Justin's family members will have lived with us. Crazy huh? Ever since we have decided it would be best for multiple reason for her to live with us, everything as been flipped upside down.

Saturday we were suppose to have family pictures scheduled for 1:30. Well while I was at work with my sisters the office phone rings. It is Justin, in a panic. His sister had been in a bad car accident and had some head trauma. I left work, called my boss, called my assistant, and called my mom all before making it home. I had arranged everything. Justin left to go cash his paycheck (which of course had come later then normal) and change the oil in the car. While he did that I packed. When he got home he told me that his dad wanted to make the trip with us. *great* Well within seconds of us closing the trunk and starting to turn everything in the house off his sister's friend called, his sister was being released from the hospital and the doctor said everything looked "great". WTH?!!! Here we were debating on packing funeral attire with the way they were talking and now miraculously she is fine? How does that happen? So I begin to unpack the car, she is fine, no need on us making a 13 hour + trip. NO Justin still wants to go and stay the whole week since we were planning on making it out for Fallon's bday anyway. I know I simply can not take off of work for an entire week (not like he should either).

I tried to argue the most I could then realized it was pointless. I had to let him go. He left Saturday at 1pm and I have hated every minute of it. He should be back sometime on Sunday (hopefully). The best part is he is in my car!!! So I am stuck with his car until Sunday. What if I break down? He is more worried about his sister who is using him then his own wife?!!! I have barely talked to him and when I do I can not even get his attention!! I am competing with everyone over there!!! I am PISSED right now!!!!

Disney world blues

In the beginning of our Feb Fl vaca I had decided to try and price out Disney World for a few days (4/5 max). I researched and researched. Finally I came to the conclusion it would be MUCH cheaper to stay at Disney's campground in our BEAUTIFUL tent that Aunt Mary gave us. Well that knocked our cost down by HUNDREDS (literally). The total came to about $720 total. Not too bad but when we are considering food, drinks, gas, Shuttle launch (the reason we are even going to FL) and tent reservations in Cape Canaveral and Tampa, it all adds up to ALOT more!!! $1500.00 approx. WOW that is ALOT of money to BLOW in one trip and come back to NOTHING in saving.

On top of all this Christmas is coming around the corner, Justin is buying a new computer in Dec. and he REALLY needs a better car. Also we are planning on moving in March when our lease is up and really need some room in our budget for the deposits, furniture, food for help, etc.

As of right now we only have $400 in our savings acct and the beginning of the month is ALWAYS our tightest budget wise. Hopefully everything will work out well for the upcoming holidays and vacation. We are seriously going to have to be some saving fools!!!

Preconception Appt

Today was my annual/preconception appt at Dr P's office. I have to admit after a weekend FILLED with bickering with Justin I was just not in the mood. There I was seated among all of these glowing preggos feeling jealous. But I digress.

Everything checked out normal and I am on Provera for 10 days as well as prenatals until I finish bfing. That should be fun to remember. LOL. I know Justin and I will be blessed with a LO when God is ready but sometimes my heart overrules my head and I can't keep the two from fighting it out, but I am really trying.

On a positive note also we put more money in our savings account today. We are trying to get to Disney World in Feb. so we are saving as much as possible. I really would not want to spend all of our savings on one trip when we have MANY other things we really need (ie a new vehicle, bigger house, pay off debt, etc) but if we don't go now who knows when we will be able to go again. And we have to go to the shuttle launch or Justin will just DIE!!! While in FL we can't forget to visit the in-laws *forcing smile*. I am planning on camping out there though so we wont have to stay at their house(s). I refuse and since I am the wife now I can be as bitchy about it as I want. :P

I know this is all over the place but at least it is out in the open now.

I'm a Mommy(sorta)

The other day the "no baby blues" hit the Wright house BAD!!! (which has since left thank you very much). It actually hit so bad that I was willing to purchase a puppy to settle the itch. For anyone that knows me that is a BIG Shocker since I dont do pets. Well we called up the manager of the complex to see how much for the pet fees and the requirements and lets just say WOW!!!! $300 for the fee, an extra $50 a month and it has to be under 15lbs. Needless to say I said HELL NO!!! to the puppy idea. If we are saving to have a LO then I am not wasting it on a puppy.

Justin and I decide to go to the pet store just to play around and maybe settle the itch. Once we were there we finally decided on a Beta fish. Simple but still a pet. We finally found one that didn't look half way dead. I also didn't want the typical red or blue one (yes I am very picky). We finally found a yellow female Betta fish, a large brandy glass shaped fish bowl and *of course* Justin found a live water plant for her to play in. We spent 45 mins and $ 50 at PetSmart.

We brought her home and named her Bubbles. So far she is doing good. Justin said he is happy we got a pet because now he can talk so someone when he is in the doghouse.

Weekend with the girls!

I love my sisters and do not get to see them nearly as often as I would like to. This weekend Justin and I headed to the "metroplex" of Butte La Rose to hand out candy and judge the costume contest at the campground. It was fun. Afterwards the girls wanted to spend the night at our place. Now that my BIL is out of the apt they can come more freely. They came over Sat. night and we had a ball. Justin drove them over to redbox and picked up Nim's Island and stuff to make frito pies (yes they eat healthy at my house). We all spralled out on the floor and watched movies and laughed and played.

After church on Sunday we all carved pumpkins and watched the Saints win. (our pumpkins are rotting already thank you very much, but that will be another post)

This weekend we will be heading out to Arnaudville to see the girls play in the Battle of the Bands at my Alma Mater. They are competing and marching for the first time. Justin and I will be there from 4pm and it is slotted to end at 10pm!!!! That is one long a$$ day!!! But I am sure we will have fun.

I am so proud of my sisters and all they have accomplished over the years. They are truely growing up before my eyes!!

Happy Birthday Daddy!!

Daddy the day of my wedding.

I am late with this tribute but better late then never right?

My dad celebrated his 49th birthday on Friday and we had a good time. It was the first night of the Bertrand family reunion so we all cut up like we always do. We all laughed and joked around. I hope he had a wonderful birthday!!

My daddy is one in a million. That is easy for me to say since I am such a Daddy's Girl but he is truely a great man.

He always was and is very philisophical. I don't ever remember him yelling so much when I was in trouble. He normally sat me down and talked to me. He may have talked for hours but he definately got his point across effectively.

He was always full of knowledge when I was growing up. I thought he knew it all. I was just amazed at how smart he was.

He was also a vol. firefighter in the earlier years. That on top of many other things made him my hero. He was willing to risk his life for others, no questions asked.

I was told when I was younger others would joke his arm would stay in the craddling position. He would not let me go. He had just lost his father and needed something good in his life, I guess I was it. When I had colic he would stay up with me all night. When he was layed off he and my mother kept food on the table. I always wanted but never needed for anything. I never went without.

I remember distictly how when he got home from work, he would get down on the floor and play with my barbies and dolls with me. We would wrestle in between commercials. We would both jump into my kiddy pool at 2am when he got home from playing music, just because we could. My daddy was the best daddy growing up and he still is today!!!

Happy Birthday Daddy!!!! May you have 49 more blessed years (and more)!!!

Where is the Toothfairy when you need her?

You know how when you were little the tooth fairy would leave a quarter or (if you were lucky) a dollar under your pillow in exchange for your newly pulled baby tooth? Well that quarter and dollar pale in comparison to the amount of money it takes the dentist to pull, drill, fill and cap the left over teeth. Where is this hatred for teeth coming from? Let me explain.

First of all I HATE teeth!!!! I don't like them at all, they are gross and bacteria filled! I hate going to the dentist not only because of the drills and needles but because of them touching my teeth with instruments (though sterilized) used on someone else's teeth. EEEWWWW!!!! But you have to go are you will wind up like my loving husband.

We went to the dentist yesterday to have our teeth cleaned and to have Justin's "bad teeth" inspected. We walked out 2 hours and $400 later. That was just for that day!!! I am happy to announce that I have nothing wrong right now and my wisdom teeth look good!! Justin on the other hand did not fair so well. He had to have a deep cleaning which he will finish up on the 20th since he was bleeding too much!!!! and several x-rays!! We were also told of the wide array of procedures that need to be conducted for him to have a healthy mouth. The original quote was almost $8000.00 but since I have no dental insurance and Dr. Bernard is the bomb.com he discounted most of the work to a little under $5000.00 before medication!!! That is still ALOT of mullah!! I feel bad for Justin because his teeth do bother him a lot more then he lets on and because of all the work he will have to get done.

I guess our budget just got a bit tighter.

Not Feeling it!

Last night after work I was suppose to pack and get ready for today. Didn't happen the way it should have. This will be the first family reunion since Granny passed and the first I will be at without her. This has be down today. I am trying to kick that out the door since today is Daddy's bday. I want to be the normal birthday lovin' girl I usually am but today I am in a funk.

On top of that the new coworker has taken over the ENTIRE job!!! I offered to split it up but since he wants to learn he is doing EVERYTHING, while I am trying to look busy!! WTF!!!! I am wondering now if I should update my resume'?

Bad Poster Bad!!!

Ok so I am officially the worst blog poster on the net but hey at least I post.

Just an update:

~I have a new coworker in my department.
~We will be moving offices and working together.
~He has alot more experience then I do
~I dont know how I feel about that
~ I kinda feel like I am being pushed out of my position
~ I hope it is just my nerves.
~I have a family reunion this weekend
~It wll be really hard without my Granny
~I also will be bringing a cake for my Daddy's B-Day on Friday
~He will love it since he RARELY gets this cake
~I am hoping to try and enjoy myself
~ Justin is looking forward to the camping too
~We are bringing our tent
~ Justin is no longer nervous after meeting a good chunk of the family at the funeral home.
~ Laila's MSDS has been acting up so I hope it stays at bay for the weekend
~It will be nice to have the weekend away

Other the the above mentioned things, Justin and I are doing great!!! We are on a budget which is tough for now but doable. We are trying to save as much money as we can with the economy being so unstable. We have a plan that works for us and we are sticking to it.

On another note Corey has moved out!!!! He is in Houston TX working so he will be off my couch and out of my house for at least a couple of months (if things stay as good as they are).

My Granny

At 5:10 on 9/16/08 I lost my Grandmother, best friend, and confidant. She was the greatest grandmother anyone could have. I was not expecting that phone call. Especially about her. She was only 69 and was doing fine on Monday night when Mama went to visit her.

The Doctor said it was a blood clot to her lungs that was the cause of death and that she went in her sleep. I hate that I wasn't there and she was alone. I hate not knowing if she really was asleep or if she knew what was going on. I hate that my mother was told over the phone and had to be there alone for hours. I hate that I couldn't seem to drive fast enough to get there.

I went to be with my sisters so my dad could be with my mom. AAAGGGHHH I just wanted to go see my grandmother!! But I knew my job as the oldest was needed. When I got there the girls were with my cousin Niki and were crying (I still choke up thinking about it). We started talking and joking around about good times and our crazy family and the mood was lightened a bit. Nik left and the girls and I watched Full House reruns and tried as we could to eat breakfast. After I knew they were a bit better I called my dad as said I was going to the nursing home and bringing the girls, I couldn't take it anymore.

Laila broke down when we got into the parking lot. My dad and mom took the girls and I rushed to my grandmother's room (why I was in a hurry now I don't know but at the time I felt like I needed to be there.) When I opened the door the nurses had covered neatly and she looked asleep. She was barely blue and still had good coloring. She was already cold but I still hugged and kissed on her as best I could over the damn bars on the side of the bed. I talked to her like I always did. I apologized for not going over the weekend before and for not being there for her last breaths.

My uncle Black and Uncle Rocky got there not long after. They really rallied around my mom (who is the baby) to all get through it. Planning the funeral went a lot better then anticipated for 5 kids. No fights, no disagreements. I wanted to pick out her outfit for the funeral and was allowed to do so. I enjoyed shopping for granny before so I had to do it one last time. I picked out a black dress with a shimmering floral jacket. She looked amazing in things that sparkled, not tacky sequins but glittering threads. Everyone raved about the dress which made me feel good. Uncle Terry, Uncle Black and Uncle Rocky made funeral arrangements so my mom could get the girls things done and not have to do everything. I couldn't have done better myself. She would have been so proud of her boys. They picked out a beautiful blue and silver casket with doves EVERYWHERE. They even had embroidery on the opening that had three doves going left and one going right with "Going Home" underneath. BEAUTIFUL!!!!

My dad did the service music, my husband was a pallbearer (sp) along with all her other grandsons and one other grandson-in-law, and the priest who did my wedding did the service. It was a beautiful day. To nice for a funeral. To nice to be sad.

She left behind a lot. She left 4 siblings, 5 children, 14 biological grandchildren, and 4 biological great grandchildren (with at least 2 more on the way). She may be gone but never forgotten.

Honeymoon to remember

And that is why I will write about it so I remember in years to come!

(It is a work in progress and will be tweaked from time to time)

The Wedding Day:

As we were walking out of the reception house, the guests that were remaining stood outside waiting the the bird seed pouches I spent HOURS on. Well the doors were open and we were PELTED, the did not throw the seed up in the air to fall softly, they just THREW it!!! OUCH!!!

We took forever to actually leave from there due to his mother. She kept talking to us, and talking to us, and talking to us. I wanted to scream "We are married let us go!!!!!!", but I was nice. We FINALLY get on the road toward San Antonio and make it about 2 miles down the road and we realize there is no way in hell we can drive 7 hours with all this birdseed. We stop to go to the bathroom and get something to drink. Well lets just say I found a visitor in the restroom and didn't have the heart to tell Justin until we hit Houston.

We got to the Crown Plaza around 2am and we were beat!! I get to the desk to check in and the guy behind the counter says "Two doubles non right?" WRONG!!! It is my honeymoon! Trust me there will be times in my marriage I want him in a seperate bed but not tonight pal. I tell the guy there is a mistake since it is our honeymoon and we requested a King. They had nothing else available until the next afternoon so we went to the room (918). It was a clean but small room and I was just so upset of having to move and do Seaworld the next day I didn't want to like it. We unloaded and decided to eat out of the wedding food that was packed for us. Lets just say that I was upset. There was enough food for one maybe. We each had a meatball, a mushroom and a 1/2 sandwich!!!! I was erked!!

That is were I am ending the wedding night portion!!! :P

Day 1:

We woke up around 7:30/8AM to find a breakfast voucher for two under our door as an apology in the room mixup. We decided to take them up and go downstairs for breakfast. It was really good and we were really hungry!

We went upstairs to change for Seaworld and went downstairs. I talked with the lady at the counter and she said they will have the room problem taken care of when we got back. We would just have to switch everything into the new room later that night whenever we were ready. Good now I can just enjoy my day!

We had a fantastic day at SeaWorld! The shows were great and Justin really enjoyed the rides. I would go back in a heart beat and the tickets were free for us as they were a gift from my boss!!!

And of course the man of the day was SHAMU!!! But watch out if you ar in the splash zone!

We stayed until closing and were a little upset because my camera kept breaking but we knew we were in a huge city so they were bound to have a WalMart :0) *yes we even shopped on our honeymoon*

We decided to stop by the hotel to change first since we were SOAKED!! When we got to the hotel the lady at the front desk told us our stuff had been moved and we were in a new room!!! 2218?! We were a little upset having them move our stuff but only until we walked into the room!!! We were on the top floor with a VIEW!!! We were on the executive level and could see most of the city out of our window. It was NICE!!!

We went to Wally world to get our snazzy new camera and McDonalds for a romantic in room dinner...lol.

Day 2, 3, and 4 to follow!

Finally!

Well I am officially a Mrs.!!! I should have updated a while back but oh well since no one reads this...lol. We went to San Antonio for our honeymoon and didnt want to come home. I will post a honeymoon blog later with details (ok not all the details).

I will update you all on our current housing situation. Let me sum it up in one word: SMALL!!

Justin's 18yr old half brother moved in with us two days after the honeymoon. Not that it wasn't planned I just thought I would get more time to be just a wife. Anyways, he is currently looking for a job while Justin wants me to start looking for a bigger place.

We are not looking to buy anything as of now. Justin did the math and refuses to finance any more then 80% for a mortage, saying "do you know how much we will pay in intrest? Lets just buy 3 houses?!" Well also the market is SO unstable right now so we will gladly pay 1/2 the amount we would be if we had a mortgage to rent and let some one else fix our a/c, plumbing, and do my grass...lol.

We will be looking into either a two br apt in our complex soon our Cory will just have to tough it out on the floor until March. I just hate him being there bc I cant do anything in the morning before work. I can't put a load of dishes or laundry on, no coffee before work at home, no morning news, NOTHING. Just get up and get dresses AAAHHH. It is beginning to wear on me.

Lets just hope he gets a job soon so maybe he will be up in the morning so I can grab a cup of coffee.

I'll update more later!!!

Really?! You sure?!

Ok I dont know if this is normal, but with all the stress of work and how busy I am tring to get out of here on Thursday, I dont feel like I am getting married this weekend. I have just so much going on in my brain that I can't process it.

My FMIL is coming in so I guess that will make it seem more real since she would not come down for any other reason. Also my HUGE and ever growing TO DO list for the wedding that is all over the dryer...dont ask. Also me trying to pack and Justin keeps unpacking stuff!!!! AAAHH my house will never be clean in time and I will not have everything done by Saturday.

On top of that my "musical assistant" backed out so yeah do you want me to bend over now or when I am finished this post?!

At least I got some GREAT things at VS today that I love!!! Cant wait to use them!!!

Ok bending over now!!!

one more week!!

EEEKKK!!!! I am getting so anxious!!! I have a LOT of things to do and only a few days in which to do them!!

My MIL should be at my house no later then Wed. AAAHHHH!!! I need to get to cleaning. She is no Susie homemaker but I at least want to show her I can keep house and take care of her little boy. I also need to clean out my car and get it travel ready!!! I need to finish packing for the honeymoon which mean laundry...lots of laundry. I also need to plan my menu for next week to feed four people instead of two.

I also have ALOT of things to wrap up at work to be able to leave and not come back to CHAOS!! It seems that every time I accomplish one task fifteen more come on my desk, I am not exaggerating.

I have my sleep over this weekend which should be fun. I just don't feel that I will enjoy it knowing that there is so much left on my to do list. We will see.

Umm...Father Time...STOP RUNNING!!!

Ok seriously where in the world did the time go?! I will be getting married NEXT WEEKEND!! In 12 days I will go from Ms. to Mrs., from fiance to wife, from Wyatt to Wright!!!

It seems like just yesterday we were starting to plan. There are still so many things to do!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!! I need a Confession/Coffee Break

~I am so BLAH today but have a crap load of work to do!!!

~ My Granny is in surgery today and I am hoping everything will be fine so she will begin to feel better. *** ok just said a prayer***

~ Justin's sister was able to regain custody of Fallon!!! Not that any mother should loose her child but I am thinking Fallon deserves the best and she is not it right now. She needs to wake up and smell the coffee.

~ Justin's mom FINALLY answered the phone and supposedly they are all coming down....

~ will they make up my F*in mind!!!

~Fallon should be coming down now so we should have a flower girl...hope the dress fits.

~ Dont know if mentioned yesterday but Justin will be working nights from now on...

~ there are pros and cons I guess but I am ok with it for now, if it becomes a problem he will switch back.

~ I am killing time at work so I will confess more later!!!

Where do I start?!

Well with 2wks and 3days to go I was expecting my stress level to become chaotic but this is nuts!

Justin just called me to tell me his sister from Florida called. She is not coming. Her excuse is that we didn't give her enough time to save money. She had EIGHT. FLIPPIN. MONTHS!!! I really don't understand it.

On top of that his mom is not answering the phone!!! I can't get over that!!! She was so upset when her daughter ran off and got married in the court house but wont come to her son's wedding? Ironic much?!

We also decided to save our money and sanity and not have a rehearsal dinner. We were very grateful from some close friends of ours to help with the cooking and venue but really couldn't go through it. Now with Justin's mom not there he really didn't feel up to slapping a smile on his face.

I think we have opted for a date nite the friday before our wedding instead of the rehearsal dinner. We will be going to an early feature (probably around 4) just him and I. A last date before we are married. We may have dinner but then he will go to my parents house and my family (girls only) and I will stay at my apartment.

I finally found a salon that wasn't booked and made appointments for all the girls, it will be $35 instead of the original $30 I was hoping for but what can I do?

Appointments will start at 9am and makeup will be at 10:30. That leaves me plenty of relax and dressing time.

Update...Confession style

~ My photographer called this morning and worked out the details of the photoshoot for Sunday....and I FINALLY excited about it.

~ I mailed out about 95% of my invitations yesterday, the rest will be going out today and tomorrow!

~ I have been getting along so well with my Mama lately and that is NICE!!!

~ We even went shopping the other night and got her the most beautiful MOB dress and a "baggage holder" as she calles it to make her look fantastic in it!!

~ I also went get my Granny's outfit, I am so happy that she is excited about my wedding!

~ My MIL and Justin talked yesterday...Finally

~ They are supposedly still coming down....I really don't know how I feel about that!

~On one hand I will be POed if they do not come but I really dont want them at my house while I am out of state.

~Also I may not have a flower girl, her daddy is trying to get full custody and is afraid Mindy will not go back to FL. with her.

~ I really dont have the energy to deal with the drama lately!!

~ Mindy checked herself out of the hospital in the middle of treatment.....but I dont care anymore......

~ My FFIL also called last night, wondering what we were going to get him to wear to the wedding....WTF!!!! NOTHING!!!! YOU HAVE KNOWN FOR MONTHS GET YOUR OWN CLOTHES!

~ I was really proud of Justin last night though... he handled both conversations very well.

~ We are having trouble with the marriage lic place because of Jus's Birth Certificate. But I am not going to stress just yet about it.

~ I need to send out my thank you cards. Today!!!

~ I need to finish the last few invitations!

~ I need to finish my bird seed pouches.

I could probably go on and on but I do have a job!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MAN I LOVE!!

***Warning this may become sappy****

I should be updating, but I will do that in another post! Today is Justin's birthday and all I want to do is consentrate on him! In honor of the greastest man in the world I decided to create a list of just the few things I ADORE about him!

~He works so hard for our family.
~He knows what he wants in life.
~He looks at me like no one ever has.
~He loves me for who I am.
~He makes me melt with every just because kiss.
~He has the most amazing smile.
~His eyes are the most beautiful blue.
~He is more then happy just to sit on the sofa and cuddle.
~He is not materialistic thought he dreams big.
~He knows how to make me smile even when I am down.

I could go on and on and on and on about Justin but I will stop here. But happy birthday to my future husband! The man of my dreams!

If money makes the world go 'round...

...then the Wright family-to-be is at a stand still. Why does it seem everytime we get a little bit ahead, we still cant afford ANYTHING. I think we are going onto EXTREME buget mode until Aug. That is the only way we will be able to afford everything.

I know it is short but I just needed to get that off my chest, I will post an update later.

Finally A Wedding Update!!!

We took our engagement pics a couple weekends back. They came out GREAT! And this Sunday I have my bridal pics!!

I bought the sleeves, tiara, and bra for the dress.

My MOH has printed out my bridal shower invites and they look great, now I just need to get the final addresses for them. I can't believe my shower is just weeks away! Wow everything is getting close!!

I just need to finish my bouquet, get tuxes, and finish paying on the house for the reception.

Everything is running pretty smoothly (knocking on wood) for the most part.

The only real problem as of now is the bridesmaids dresses are not coming in until approx. three weeks before the wedding.

Hopefully that will be the biggest problem we will have.

I will keep you posted!

Much Better Monday!

So sorry about the last RANTING post, but I have to say it felt so good to get it all off my chest.

Right after I finished typing the last blog, Justin called me. He told me that his uncle from Kansas was down for the weekend working at the airport. He was so excited. They hung out all weekend and it made me feel good to FINALLY meet a good wholesome person in this family right in the mist of the Wright family drama. Perfect timing, needless to say we are planning a winter trip up there to visit more often. Believe it or not they are closer then Justin's mom anyways.

Saturday I went to a baby shower for my cousin's wife. She is due at the end of this month with little Aiden and he will be the LSU mascot straight from birth. Trust me there is not a thing in that nursery that is not LSU. Too cute.

Saturday I also went shopping with Sarah for a preggo bathing suit. I have to say she looks better then I do in one. Her belly is so cute now. Really showing and I can not wait to meet another member of the Ables clan.

After shopping Jus, Uncle Bill and I went to Gator Cove for boiled crawfish....MMMMMMMMM...they were sooo good. I hadn't had it in so long I was beginning to feel that they were going to take my cajun certificate away, but no worries I made up for it Sat. night :)

Sunday was our engaged encounter in Eunice. That was nice. We heard talks on many different aspects of marriage, not just in the church but in life, then we had to go and actually talk about what we felt about each talk. It was nice to have a day that is truely all about you and your partner. I never realized how much we talk at each other instead of with each other. I think what we learned will help up throughout our marriage. Even Justin said he liked it, even though he was dead set against having a bad time.

Needless to say I am in a much better mood today then I was on Friday. I will update later (ok maybe tomorrow) on wedding plans.

VENT TIME!!!

First off I know I said I would update once a week, oh well maybe next week. Today is not a happy, cheery, wedding bliss day. Today is a rant and rave day!

Lets start with the beginning. My MIL's husband is an ASS!!! My MIL and SIL do pills and God only knows what else. My BIL who is only 17 is living the good life in FL, with a bag a weed at a time, and beer and cigs complements of my SIL and MIL! WTF!!!!!

I love them all and maybe that is why it makes me so mad but I have had enough of that behavior from them. I could never trust them to be in my house alone or with my children. And I hate feeling this way because it is the only part of Justin's family that actually cares for him.

The next reason I am upset is this. My BIL got a job at the bar and grill that my MIL works at washing dishes. They pay him cash under the table, illegal but whatever, that does not make me too mad. What does make me mad is instead of paying him and he learning responsibility to pay his share of the rent and bills, my MIL lovingly told their boss to give her his money!!! They dont give it to him AT ALL!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is wanting him to hate life and not know any responsibility and not want to have a job. She is not even saving it for him she is using it on her husband, who we thought was gone for good.

That leads me to another part. They all moved into a bigger place so they would save on rent. Now my MIL wants ASSHOLE to move back in with all of them!!!! He has no job but has a BAD Crack addiction. So now every one is mad at each other. And my MIL refuses to pay any rent, remember she has my BIL share so he cant pay his!

Wow and I thought having a gay SIL was going to be a problem. The other thing that pisses me off is how do we find all this drama out over the phone after A MONTH OF CALLING AND NO ONE ANSWERING. What if something bad had happened? What if I was pregnant and wanted to tell them the good news? What if we had gone into town for a suprise visit? If we were hurt? dead? ANYTHING? That pisses me off! If you get calls from your child's phone at least 3xs a day for 32 days doesnt that mean they need to talk to you? We called all the cell phones and work phones we knew, and neither one would call us back!

But the icing on the cake for me is this is all happening in front of a 4 year old! Nice right?

Now Justin is mad at me for stating the obvious, I know I should bite my tounge but I am hurt too. Ecspecially since the main reason we had started to call them every day was to surprise my MIL with a trip down here. We even tried calling on mother's day............no answer.


Wow I guess it is true what they say about in-laws!


Don't even get my started on my FIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Update

***I think I should update once a week for my sanity and to keep me on track. When you think about it I only have 14 weeks left until my wedding! 9 weeks until my bridal shower! It may seem like a long time but it really wont be.***

~Deposit has been made....The house is even more beautiful then I remember. ***Sarah you need to come with me one day whe you are feeling better to scope it out and help me with ideas :) ***

~I have plans to go to Baton Rouge this Saturday to drop off my dress to the cleaners. Kendi and Laila will do their part by sitting in the car and asking "are we there yet" 500million times....gotta to love devoted Bridesmaids.

~I am in the process of collecting more addresses for my guest list (but hey I had a lot more then I thought).

~My wedding flowers came out black! Not chocolate! BLACK! I am going to relook into ordering them. It may cost me more in the long run, but oh the stress it will save me.

~after the worst possible drama about the church, we finally have it! Aug 9, 2008 at 1:30pm. And a rehersal at 7pm on the Thursday before.

~ the AMAZING invitations I found do not come printed and it would be so delicate to print them ourselves....so the search is back on for the perfect invitations.

~Justin and I are looking into buying his mother a round trip bus ticket so she can come down for the bridal shower. I'll post soon on the outcome.

I guess that is it for now. I have a major paper due today and I haven't even started! Yep typical Talor!

updated to do list

THE GUEST LIST IS DONE!!!!!

I need to:

Call the church and double check that I have it booked...I am really stressing about this one!!!

Bring the deposit to La Belle Masion....waiting on Justin!

Bring my wedding dress to the cleaners....was planning on doing that this Sat. but I will push it back just one more week.

I need to finalize who is walking in the wedding with Justin (now he has an opinion!)

We REALLY need to start saving more money!

Finish my finals!!!! I have never wanted school to be out soooo bad!

Ok my head is spinning so I will finish this off later. Maybe I will call the church :(

Edited to Add***

OMG!! I just called the church and my wedding is still just PENDING!!! The priest still never mailed our prenup. agreement!! I could cry! I could Kill! (then I really couldnt get married in the church). Supposedly Daddy is taking care of it but I feel so out of control! I just need a good stiff drink!!!

Overwhelmed

*Sigh*

I am just going to vent on this one since it wont hurt me one bit. I just feel so heavy lately. I had a beautiful vacation but feel like everything has just exploded work wise while I was out. I have mountains of paperwork to go through and catch up on.

I also have so much going on at school, I feel like I cant keep up. I feel that I have let it slide way to far. Hell I dont even know when finals are! I am so afraid of failing and having to pay all that money back to my boss, when I def. can not afford it right now.

I also have an ever growing todo list for the wedding, and with Justin's dad adding stress to Justin and I, it is not getting any easier. I think we have decided to keep saving as much money as we can to hopefully start paying for wedding stuff. *sigh* I am excited but stressed at the same time.

I am so scared but I really want to make sure we have the church for the wedding before I make invitations. I need to call them, but I am to nervous, maybe tomorrow.

Ok I am done venting for now, see no harm done.

Tampa or Bust

Beach towel....check
suitecase.........check
icechest...........check
air mattress....check
new shorts......close but not done
new trunks for Justin....hopefully by this weekend
food and drinks for traveling...next weekends shopping trip

So glad I am not the get up and go type of gal. I literally plan and find discounts for EVERYTHING!!! So much that I am considering putting some of our gas money onto walmart gift card to save $.03 a gallon. I am frugal not cheap :)


Also we can not forget to bring, Fallon's dress to try on, her flowers to paint, pictures to take with us, transfer half of funds onto a visa gift card to prevent Justin's stepdad from going crack happy, purchase tickets to either the zoo or the aquarium (depending on what Fallon and Justin choose). I have to print them out now before we go 1) bigger discounts for advance purchases and 2) I will have no contact with the internet world the entire stay!!!!!! I hope I can survive!

We have also FINALLY decided on a honeymoon spot and are currently looking for different activities to keep us busy during our stay. I will make a seperate post revealing the location and events later.

***Side note**** one of the guys in the shop thought I was getting married this month!!! I wish!!! I can't wait for the day and I just want to be done with it!!! It seems like my planning has trinkled down and now I am doing nothing but saving and dishing out money. I now see why people elope and we havent even gotten down to crunch time. I am looking for anything to keep me busy wedding wise. I just feel like with work and school I am neglecting wedding plans. I don't know. My cousin's wedding is this weekend so hopefully that will put me in the mood to get more done. I so wish we could switch dates. My day will come and it will be the best day of my life! Justin and I will drive away as husband and wife and I will be back in my own house and everything will be the way it is suppose to be.

Ok enough rambling on. I am getting back to work!

Oh and I forgot to mention 13 more days until Tampa!

Today is the day.

Mr Glenn called Justin this afternoon and said he was released from the hospital. When Justin got off he picked up my car, then Mr Glenn and now are almost in Iowa as we speak. I know Mr Glenn is glad I am not there after the conversation we had at the hospital last night. I was mean but Ihad no choice. Well I would say I was "mean", more like I stood my ground and was tough.

Positive update time! 19 days until Tampa!!!! WHOOOO HOOO I am excited! I can't wait for the white sand beaches. When I get there I will blend in with them but when I leave I hope to be 100xs darker!!! (That is my goal anyway).

I am also excited because when I leave here I wont be leaving Mrs Bobbie alone. Toby was hired and will start a week before I leave. That should give him enough time to at least be enough help while I am out. And they both know they can bug me if need be.

I am loving my new job though. It can be crazy at times, but that is part of the learning process. I like meeting new people and the work is not too crazy just yet so I will manage.

Congrats to my friend Deidre who just recently got engaged to a longtime friend Logan. They are planning a 2009-2010 wedding so she will have plenty of time to give me details! I am happy that she is finally happy.

This weekend Justin is going to be meeting my grandmother on my mom's side for the first time ( though I can swear they met when we were in high school, but he says no and she says yes so who knows) So they are meeting as offical soon-to-be family. I miss her and am excited about the visit.

I really feel like I am not a bride anymore. I am at such a hault with planning and dont know where to pick up again. I really need some time with my MOH she is always in the planning mood. Hopefully when I get back from FL we can have a lunch or dinner just her and I to chat it up ****HINT HINT SARAH***** lol

That is all for now!!!

I have a reason...

For being so far behind on my postings. In the last post I mentioned we had Justin's dad in visiting us and all was going great. Well Tuesday night did not go over so well. We see now the mistakes we made and are working very hard as a family (Justin and I) to work through them without leaving to sour a taste in anyone's mouth. Justin's dad will be in the hospital for some time but we (Jus, Dr Diggs and I ) believe it is for the better. We can not handle this situation when trying to start a life of our own as a new family. I would do anything for his or my family but Mr Glenn staying with us is just not possible right now. We will cross the living situation bridge when we get there.

On to happier updates. All my friends little babies are ONE!!! (Well except the Boudreaux twins...but they are still growing too fast.) My sisters and I went to Anderson's birthday party. It was so cute and he got more gifts then I ever did. It is good to see my best friend be the great mom I always knew she would be. It is still hard to realize that we are adults. Justin and I will be married in a little over 4 mts (even though it seems years away.) and hopefully with in the next year or two we will be trying for our first little one. Sure everyone will be a lap or two ahead of us in the race but we are taking it at our own time. God's will, plus I want to enjoy just being with my husband.

I also am on spring break from school so I should feel more relaxed but last night was stressful, but tonight I KNOW will be better, even if I have to fake it. I refuse to stress over things I can not change. We visit Justin's dad every day for visiting hours and his emotions are what are wearing on Justin's and mine. I just cant let it bother me anymore.

I guess that is it for today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDERSON PARKER!!!!

Thankful

Sunday Jus and I went to visit his dad and some cousins in Iowa,La. I had been there before but never inside that house. They live in a trailer that literally is being held up by random 2x4s and logs they have cut from trees. They have nothing but there is crap everywhere. They have no hot water and there are two adults, Justin's dad, two twenty somethings and a 3yr old that live in this house, only two people have jobs. The minute I walked in I was so thankful for my cute and clean one bedroom apartment and I was no longer embarrased by my dirty dishes.

For those I have not told Justin's dad is a very bad alcoholic. I didn't even realize how bad until yesterday. After sitting there and visiting for a bit Justin and I realized just how unhappy he was living over there. He will be staying with us for a few days at least. I just want him to have a hot meal and a hot shower. He is such a bad cig. and beer addict that I had to stop twice on the way home so he could smoke and "down one". After the second time Justin told him he would have to go the remaining 20minutes without. He started to shake but never said anything. He is a great man, very nice and respectful, just drunk. I really wish Justin and I could help him more (rehab or something) but at least I know he is safe at my house and clean.

We did give him a limit on how much he would have to drink and smoke a day but I dont know how long that will last him. When I left him this morning at 7:20 he had already started drinking (and washing my dishes). I will go back at luch to check on him. Just pray for God's will.

Also, I think we may be offending some of Justin's family with our style of wedding. When they heard about just some of the details they started saying stuff like, "Are you sure us lower class can come", "Hope you bought enough beer to help us fit in", "Do you think we can afford to be there for such and event", "Well we don't want to embarrase yall". I dont know what exactly they ment by it but it really hurt my feelings. This is not to impress them this is for Justin and I. and by them thinking I didn't want them there so that is why I made it a nice wedding sort of made me mad. That and his cousin putting down the Catholic church but that is a whole other blog.


Happy Monday!

Post #50!!!

Well we got our first round of engagement pics done today, very excited. This weekend was the craziest and it is not getting any better. I feel like I have not stopped, which usually is good considering all I usually do is clean on weekends anyway but this is the weekend I really wanted to just clean/veg in my house but with all this crazy stuff going on I couldn't :( March is already looking busy for me and April is our Tampa trip among other things. I am not complaining just making an observation. Then with this spring forward crap I really feel like I have less time today.

Friday night was Mama's bday so Jus and I headed that way after work. We got there about 7ish but by the time we were ready to leave it was pass 11. We had the bright idea of letting Jus take the car home and I stay put until the am. Well Justin woke up late (shocker) and FINALLY got to my moms around 10 am. I told him we had a long list of things to do since our pics were the next day and he had to go to work. We got many things done with Kendi's help when I realized that the shirt I had planned to take my pics in was just not going to workout. So I was off to the mall when I realized the time. I had to pick up Laila (back in Arnaudville) When I got there Kendi and Laila each had a friend. Two thirteen year olds and two twelve year olds and I trapped back to Lafayette to the mall. Needless to say we got back about 11pm last night!

Then this morning I was up and at'em for 7am (so much for sleeping late on a weekend huh?) I got half way ready and drove back to Lafayette to wake up Justin and to finish getting ready for pics. All went well but we took a little longer then we all expected. It is now 3pm and I just got a call that I need to pick up Kendi and be at church in BB by 5 or I can drive all the way back to Lafayette and go to church at 6:15. I have a MAJOR list of things that needs to be done in my house so I will have to decide quick! plus I have to pick up food for Just on my way out of town! So much for a veg weekend :)

will post new pics soon!

GREAT NEWS!!!

I got ANOTHER raise and a promotion to boot!!!! I will have my own office, my own cell phone, and many other luxuries I did not have before. I love the position that I have now but I am surely up for the challenge of the new one. I will have to work a lot more but I think it will all be worth it.

Justin also got a raise yesterday! I am so proud of him and all his hard work and well earn achievements. I can not wait to say "that is MY husband!" He will never know how much I love and appreciate him.

To celebrate we bought our wedding rings!!!!! They are PERFECT!!

Good News

I was suppose to write this yesterday but oh well, Sarah, you are the only one that reads this and you know anyways...lol

I finally found someone who will clean my dress. They are in Baton Rouge but I am ok as long as they get it done. It is also not that bad of a price anyway.

I called LaBelle Masion to make sure my reception was still on the schedule and it is!! Now I just have to double check with the church.

I GOT A RAISE!!! $6000.00 more a year to be exact!! I am so excited! My boss had nothing bad to say about me!!!

I am thankful for all of these good things in my life. Now on to even more exciting news. We planned our Tampa trip!!! We will leave Tuesday April 15th after work or school and drive all night to Tampa. We will then stay until Sunday after lunch and drive back. I am really excited!!!!

Thankful and Loved

I have come to realize the only way I am going to be happy with having to sleep in Arnaudville is to be there as little as possible. So now I find myself getting there at the latest possible hour and waking at the crack of stupid! Sunday morning I woke up at 7am on my day off to drive back to Lafayette to avoid any conflict with my mother. I arrived at my house and did chores, visited Jus at work and watched my Desperate Housewives on my laptop (since I can not do that on my 3 channel tv).

Needless to say that by the time Jus got home from work we were both sooo tired. When he got home we both studied for a bit then decided to take a nap. When we both woke up it was just so amazing! We both felt refreshed and awake!*no pun intended* We decided to be lazy for the rest of the day. We baked a pizza (since we are to poor to order one..lol) and watched movies together. I didn't realize how much I missed him. Crazy huh?

I just feel so loved and happy to have him around! We will get through these five more months and will be all the stronger for it!

Reality

Yesterday evening Justin got a wake up call. While sitting at the airport talking to a couple pilots about tips and advice in his flight lessons, he found out what they where there for. He discovered that those pilots work for a medical company that flyes critical needs patients from one town to specialty hospitals and they were waiting for a male from here in Lafayette. Justin just sort of brushed it off since he sees this at least once a week. Little did he know that tonight would be totally different from the others. When he directed the ambulance in and opened the doors he was shocked. On the gurny was a small isollete with a tiny baby no bigger then his hand. He helped load the baby into the jet along with 2 doctors and 3 nurses. He fought back tears as the small little boy cried with all his might but sounded not louder then a kitten. Justin was in awe of how much everyone took control of there position to help this small little baby. Sadly the parents couldnt go with the baby the ambulance driver had said. I keep this baby in my prayers. I really hope he made it to Philadelphia safe and hope that he is able to grow healthy and strong. I pray for his parents. I am sure they, like most parents, hoped for a healthy baby and now have to struggle with their one day old baby being in a completely different state from them and the fear of the unknown. It makes you thankful for what you have and pray that it never happens to you. But now I hope that if my child or family member needs urgent care like that little baby that the medical team will be as caring a professional as that flight team was last night. Justin said he will never forget that small little tiny baby, scared and all alone but with so many around. It just makes you think.

Bridal Gown Drama!!!

I have the PERFECT dress! The only problem is it is used, no big deal, until the cleaner you bring it to is an idiot! Let me start from the beginning!

My mom called Camellia Cleaners on Kaliste Saloom last week, and asked if they cleaned wedding dresses. The lady told her yes but only at the store on Bertrand. My mom then procceded to call that location. The lady said that they did have someone there that took care of wedding dresses and heirloomed them. My mother told her we did not need it heirloomed just cleaned and they told her "no problem".

Fast forward to today: I called the Bertrand location to insure that they were open. The lady said "Yes, until noon." I asked is this the place that cleans the wedding dresses. "Yes, we can also heirloom them". I told her that would not be necessary since I need to wear the dress. She said "then I will tell them, just bring it by".

I drove from Arnaudville all the way to Lafayette. Laila and I walked into the store, carring my mammonth of a dress. When I walked the the bit...lovely lady behing the counter asked "are you the one that called about the wedding dress". Holding back smart ass comment, I say "yes, is there any place I need to put it" She said "Oh we dont clean them here." Fine, I ask if someone picks them up and does them elsewhere. "No"she said"we dont do wedding dresses at all" and my favorite thing out of here own mouth "I dont know who told you we did". My blood at this point is BOILING. I told Laila to go in the car. I turned back to the lady and informed her that she herself had told me and that my mother had called one week prior in order to get the dress to the correct place. Then she informed me it would be a $75 deposit up front! FOR WHAT?! Heirlooming!!!! How many times do I have to tell the woman I am getting married in Aug and would like to wear the dress to the wedding! and how in the HELL can you expect someone to pay for you to heirloom a DIRTY dress?! I will NEVER go there agian and have half the mind to call the owner!! If they didnt clean wedding dresses they just had to say so!!! Now I have a big wedding dress sitting in my car with my fiance near by!!! oh the stress!

Not so good day~

So it started like this, Thursday I had to work late. Justin came to be with me so I was not all alone at work. All of a sudden and completely out of the blue, an old ex texts me. I ignore him and laugh it off to Justin. Then he texts me two more times. I refuse to answer back and thought all was done with, then came Friday.

I picked up my friends little boy and was heading home. Justin had seemed aggravated each time I spoke with him. I thought it was all because I was interviewing a friend of mine for a position at work. Justin had called me and told me before that we would be going to a friend of his house. Fine we need to get out every once in a while, we are such homebodies. Well on my way home he calls to find out where I am and it all went down hill from there.

Trying to cheer him up I ask him how his day was and he began to tell me how bad it was bc he was mad at me all day long bc of the texts the day before...in other words he thought I was lieing to him since the ex texted me 3 times I must have texted him back! How horrible to think that I would lie about something so stupid!!! We, needless to say, went no where last night and I felt horrible bc I had told my friend I would keep her baby all night but wound up bringing him back. I am so tired today. I tossed and turned so much last night bc he was so mad for NOTHING!! If I would have been guilty I understand but nothing!

Needless to say it carried over to today. I have one of my sisters here and the other is at a science fair comp at the University so it is still a bad day, but it has gotten better now :)

Wright Family Updates

Justin Updates
~ My uncle NEVER called back about the Blazer and Justin was literally stuck at the airport(where the truck it still sitting to this day!) So we bought an '86 Ford Tempo. It is old but it runs!

~ Justin is up for a raise on the third of March! His bosses rave about him all the time! I am so proud of him and happy that he likes his job.

~He has also started flying again. Yesterday was his first day back in the air!! I was so scared I couldn't even go! I sat at my desk with my heart in my throat for 3 hours! But he is safe on the ground and going back up next week. I sure hope it gets easier on my nerves, since this is what he wants to make a living doing, with 50 more hours of training.

~On a sad note: Justin's sister called a few weeks ago, actually the week before Mardi Gras to say that his mom's weight is down to 98lbs! When Mindy brought her to the doctor he found two lumps in her breast. Justin is so scared right now and no one has called to give us an update. We really need to get to Tampa soon!

Wedding Updates:

~ I have found the dress!!!! It is white with crystal and pearl beading, a long train, button down back and was FREE!!!! I love it!!! Thank you Kimberly!!!

~ I have also gotten two photographers! Uncle Kent and Kimberly ( Kim may even have a friend come to help her!) I feel like Britney Spears (with real hair...lol)

~ I have a caterer! After much debate with my Daddy, he caved! We will have enough food to feed an army and I don't have to cook anything!! The menu will include:
Chicken Fet.
Pork Roast
Spin. and arti. dip (hot)
Crab dip (hot)
Mexican Layer dip (cold)
Boudin
Veggies
Fruit
Cheese
Bread
Chips and crackers
Meatballs
Cocktail sausage
Chicken Salad Sand.
stuffed mushrooms
and wine and spritz punch with fountains!
* another plus is she is family so that was another money saver right there!!!! I am loving this frugal business!

~ I have bought most of my flowers. I couldn't find the chocolate roses like I wanted so now I am painting flowers, but it is worth it!

~ Fallon (Jus' neice) will be wearing Laila's old flowergirl dress. It just so happens to match mine perfectly!! We also bought her flower girl basket that has little pearls on it. I think it is just so darn cute!!

~ I think we finally got the church. But you all know my pestimistic self so I will probably go next week to check before going book La Belle Maison for the reception (which I hope is still available)

~ I dont know if I posted before but the date is August 9, 2008!!! The count down has begun!

Moving Update:

~ I am unoffically, offically back in Arnaudville! I tend to show up about 10:30-11pm every night and then get up and go to work, it wastes alot of gas and money but it makes the parents happy.

~ Happy parents = $$$$ for wedding!

~ I really hate the drive and I really hate the way the country smells. This may sound weird but I never thought it smelled funny when I really lived there, but now it seems like every morning I wake to skunk stink! EEEEWWW! only five more months! I dont think I will last!

~ Bc of all the traveling my rear tires have worn down to nothing! I need new tires but can not buy them now! SUCKS!!!!

Work update:

~ I have been up for a raise since Nov. but my boss just told me that when she gets back from Dallas (Monday) She will let me know. Prayers please!

~ Also, Teresa will be putting in her two weeks next Wed. I dont know who I will chat with anymore! I really hope I get a bump in pay to compensate all the extra work that will fall on me but I am so happy for her! She has a really good offer and I dont blame her for taking it! I wish her all the best!

Apartment Update

~ We renewed our lease until Aug. 31st.

~ We had been looking for a house but have decided to stop due to credit and money at this time. We will resume looking probably after the wedding.

~ If all else fails we will be moving into a 2b 1b apt at the same complex!

Plans update

~ In beginning Jus and I had decided to stop the pill the day of the wedding and put our lives in God's hands. We were not going to try or prevent. With recent financial obstacles we have decide to at least wait a few months (at least) before make baby decisions. We are young and healthy for the most part and have the rest of our lives to have children. As much as it hurts this is the decision we have reached. I still need to find strength in it but I am working on it since it is what is best for us right now. And who knows we may change our minds again (we tend to do that often)


I think that is enough for now but I will be better at updating, promise!

Bad Bad Blogger!!

I vow from now on I will be better at this blogging thing. Even though no one reads this, this is my outlet. Expecially now with the weight loss (trying anyways), wedding info, etc. I need to write so I can go back and look at all the blessings, trials, and overall past experiences to help with my evergoing memory!

I have been awake since 4am. and for some odd reason can not go to sleep! I blame Justin. And do you know where he is? guess? ASLEEP! (it is after all 11pm) He is tucked away peacefully sleeping, with visions of sugarplums just to rub it in probably. gggrrrr. And I am the one who has to work in the morning, he on the other hand is off and going to the driving range with the guys!!!!! I love him but it is times like this that I really truely ponder if he secretly enjoys this. I know that is false bc he sleeps like the dead...actually I would say harder, but that is another post. Sorry so random but just putting it out there. Hope everyone else is having a good night.



****Editors note: I blame Justin solely because he knows I am terrified of aliens and UFO's. Stupid I know but truely it terrifies me! He was watching documentaries of NASA and how they know secrets about aliens (which kinda defeats the purpose of a secret if it is online huh?) He knows if he wants to watch it I don't care, he just should do it in our bedroom on his computer where I wont see and hear it but NO he puts it on MY laptop and turns up the volume and even has the nerve to say, "babe are you watching this?" GGGRRRRR! Sometimes I wonder about that boy!

Blessings Upon Blessings

Tuesday was my parents 25th wedding anniversary. They wanted to celebrate with a dinner at their house just them, my sisters, Justin, and I. It was nice.

25 years! Wow!! I really hope Justin and I are still in love and as happy in 25 years!!

At dinner my dad announced that he got a new job!!! We had been waiting to hear from this company and on his anniversary he found out he got it!!! We are all so happy and proud of him.

Also, I decided to be come a Premier Designs Jewler. I think this will help Justin and I out financially. I hope I can do well and still get all the things in my life done.

Ok enough bragging! I'll keep you updated!!

The "Deal"

Well I am moving out :( As much as it hurts me to admit it and it will be even harder to do, I must do what I have to. In order to be married in the Catholic Church we must live apart for at least 6 mts. I am so upset about this so I will not elaborate on it.

Also since I am moving back in with my parents they maybe helping with the wedding. They will be helping me with the extra expense of gas since my travel time will be significantly increased.

I know everything will work out for the best in the end. Wedding wise. Jus' truck on the other hand broke down last night and now we either have to spend a lot of money to fix up this piece of crap or put a lot of money to a "new" one (used...new to us) The problem is we dont have alot of money.....hell we dont have any money!! Hopefully my uncle will be willing to sell us my cousins '96 Blazer at a good deal. Just keep us in your prayers as we wait for word.

More updates later!!!

Sad ... Hurt ... Stressed

I am soo upset since this morning. I have cried until no more tears can fall. I love Justin with all my heart and want so desperately to be Mrs. Justin Wright but everything is a struggle. He keeps telling me that it will be ok and we will make it through but I can not imagine waking up even one morning without him by my side. I will explain another day when I have the energy!

Have a great weekend.

David's Bridal Pissed Me Off!!!

Saturday my MOH and I went dress shopping to narrow down what type of dress I want to wear before my FMIL comes up from Tampa. We had a good time at Chili's before hand where the manager told us to check out the dresses by Maggie Sottero. We went to David's Bridal first, thinking with a franchise name they have to be good right?! WRONG!!!! I was so upset, not by the fact that we had walked in but by the fact that the lady said no one could help us (cool and understandable, we had just walked in) but on our way out she IMMEDIATELY saw this other girl who also didn't have an appt!!!! WTF?!!

We decided to go to Charisma just a few blocks down. My consultant just happened to be a girl I knew in high school and I must have tried on 20 different dresses. When I put on the Zaga by Maggie Sottero is when I fell in love all over again! I am almost 100% this is the one but I looked on her website and saw a few others I will try on when Mrs Penny is up from Tampa at the end of the month. But anyway, Charisma, perfect dresses and perfect staff!!! They even let us finish up after closing and never even looked upset!!! Love those ladies.

I kept my noon appt for the next day (Sunday) at DB, just to give them a 2nd chance.......BIG MISTAKE!!!! When I got inside the lady who met me at the door gave me this dirty look and asked if I had been helped I told her "no" and she walked away!!!! A second lady came to see if I needed anything( Duh I am standing at the desk for appt that says check in!!!!) but I stay calm and told her that I had an appt but had not been helped. She handed me a magazine and told me to pick out only 3 dresses and she would get someone to help me. I waited and waited and finally this sweet girl named Virgina came to me and asked my sizes and pulled my dresses. After talking to her for a minute she told me it was her first day on the floor. That is fine with me, so I am giving her extra slack on the time issue, which she really wasnt too bad with. After I tried on my 3 dresses she asked me if I wanted to try on others, just then this mean looking lady ( the one who left me hanging at the desk) told her I was only allowed to try on 3 dresses and would have to make another appt if I had not chosen the dress I wanted!!! I left in a huff!!

I will never go back there!!!! I had even picked out my BM and MOH dresses there but now I refuse to give them my business!!! I hope Virgina gets a better job at another bridal shop, she seemed to be the only one who cared!!!

***Good news is I think I have found my dress!!!! ******