He asked "Will you Marry Me?"

And of course I said yes!!! It was perfect. He was so nervous, but it was perfect!! Now starts the chaos of wedding planning. My head is already hurting, oh how did Sarah do it in just 8wks? lol. I guess we have to pick a date. There is just so many factors to consider. First off who is paying for what. My dad mentioned nothing about helping out, which is cool but a budget is necessary to start. Also, his family lives in Tampa, Fl so it has to be when they can get off of work and come down. Also I have 3 cousins due in 2008 and I have 2 cousins engaged and 1 friend getting married, all of a sudden 52 weekends is looking like such a small number. I want to be married in 2008 but can't seem to get everyone on the same page. To top things off though, Justin has NO idea who he wants to walk as groomsmen, let alone a best man!!!!!! I am sure all will work out in the end :) As long as at the end of the day we are together, nothing else matters :)

Happier

Ok...I regress. I am now happier about what I was soooo upset over. I am actually now VERY anxious for Christmas. No not 100% in the spirit ( since it is 78 degrees outside and VERY rainy). I hope to get my nails done today (so they look good for Christmas...hehehe), I am also getting my hair FINALLY cut and highlighted on Friday at noon then I am going to Baton Rouge with Sarah to the Nottoway Plantation. Saturday is my company Christmas party at the casino and Sunday I am going with my mother and sisters to have preChristmas at my Grandmother's in Mamou. Justin wants to come with us but he has to work.

I am looking forward to everything but really wish I had next Wednesday off so I can recoup from Christmas chaos. I have a feeling that shortly after Christmas chaos is the wedding chaos, not to mention the Wright family with its continuous chaos.

I am trying to find out when Justin's sisters court date is since his mom is coming up with her. That way with both his mom and his sister here I can include them in dress shopping. I miss his mom and would be hurt if she was unable to see me and help me in part of the planning of her only son's wedding. I think the date is sometime in Jan so I will call her after Christmas to find out.

Ok I am trying to get back to work....

Feeling...Pondering

If "Good thing come to those who wait" do bad things happen to people who jump into it? What if you take a peek into what is going to be happening bc you just dont have the patients? Are you jinxed? set up to fail? worse?

Ok enough of the guilt trip on to blogging....

I don't know why but I am really NOT in the Christmas mood. Sure Jus did a BEAUTIFUL job with all our decorations. Also we are almost done with our shopping, and the ones we have bought are wrapped preciously under our nicely decorated tree. I even baked Christmas cookies FROM SCRATCH. I guess there is just something about a 70 degree Christmas that just keeps be from being jolly. And I know that the minute Christmas does come it will just seem like another day. It may also be to the fact that this is my first Christmas in my own home. And the fact that I am banished from sleeping in my parents house....well I am not just Justin, but that is a long story. I wish there could be a HAPPY CHIRSTMAS pill I could take to get in the mood. I still have 12 days to get happy so time will tell. Meanwhile if anyone has any suggestions, send them my way :)

Update

Justin has officially moved in. That was an adventure but he is here and settled. It is actually great having him home everyday. Besides the phone not being stuck to my ear and the cell bill going down quite a bit, the trash is always taken out, and I dont have to do it. That is not the only reason I am happy he is in but it sure is a plus. He even decorated the outside of the apartment. I decorated the bedroom and the kitchen and we both helped with the tree. I think our little house looks like a home :)

Well our housewarming party went well. We had a few guests who all showed up at different times. I actually think this was best so my house wasn't too crowded and I got to visit with everyone, hopefully not leaving everyone out. We had some of his friends and some of mine, it was nice.

He started his new job at Million Air on Monday and LOVES it!! This was music to my ears after being with someone who NEVER wanted to work. I love that he is happy at his job and that he is good at what he does. I am also thankful for him being happy with his new environment.

Jus is very good around the house, he has helped me more then I could have ever thought possible. We even have almost all our Christmas shopping done, just one or two people left. Now we just have to wrap and mail off his family's package to FL. I know he misses them dearly but is much happier now that the drama is further away. He tells me daily how happy he is to be here. That makes me happy.

Oh...and for those who actually care....we looked at rings last night, all his decision I swear. He said that he can not afford it until a couple of paychecks come in but we found the one I absolutely loved so now he gets the general idea of what to look for. I guess I got the fire under his ass!

The Parents Have Been Told!

Well it is a long story but lets just say that Mama and Daddy now know that Justin is moving in with me. Daddy took it a lot better actually. Mama took it exactly like I thought. Crazy how well we know our parents.

I have been getting a great deal of "advice" from different friends and finally I have decided while most of them are speaking from love one is just being spitful. Elly's mom keeps telling me Justin and I should NEVER get married and just start trying for kids NOW?! What the hell?!

1st off Justin and I will do WHAT WE WANT, if people dont like it tough titty! If we get preggo then we will deal with it but we will not stay living in sin forever.

2nd we know that this is not the way God would want it and YES we are getting married! No I do not have a ring yet, though we may do somethings backwards, my proposal will be a suprise. I want it to come when he is ready. Not when I tell him he needs to.

I do however offer ALL advice from ALL my friends positive and negative. And I am sure most will give it but do not TELL me that I should have kids now and marriage later. Advice is one thing demands are another.

Time to Update

This is what has been going on with me. Laila came spend the past weekend at my house. It was fun and she really enjoyed the one-on-one time. Kendi and Laila were both in volleyball at AP&R, though Laila couldnt play bc of a broken finger (with RSDS it takes FOREVER for things to heal, if they even heal). Kendi also made the school basketball team, so you know what I will be up to :) I am so proud of my girls.

This weekend Justin, Toby and I are going meet up with Casey in Galveston. We will be driving in Friday evening. Saturday I want to just veg on the island. We will probably just hit the IMAX and the Strand! Sunday I have big plans for Justin! We are going to an airshow. Not just any air show either, this one is only featuring WWII fighter planes! After that we will be going to NASA in Houston. ( for you who dont know Jus is OBSESSED with NASA, I on the other hand use it to fall asleep to) Oh the things we do for the ones we love *force smile*

Also on the weekend of the 17th Kendi and Laila are coming spend the weekend! Broussard is having some town thing so we will probably hit that. We may also go by to visit my granny in Mamou (who we hardly ever see now-a-days).

On top of all this Justin is moving in at the end of THIS month!! At least everything seems to be falling into place. Million Air is suppose to call him back with either an interview date or a start date :) and the truck should be ready in a couple weeks. I hope he is ready, he just finished filling out his intent to move paperwork yesterday! Wow this is really happening!

Well I am just going to stop here and let all this settle in! Have a good weekend!

Things That I Know now that I am 9 Months Old~By Elly

~ I LOVE to ride in my snazy new front facing car seat!

~ I have learned how to get EVERYTHING I want just by whining, I don't even have to fully cry and scream anymore.

~ Going to Ta Ta's house always means something new, either a new sippy cup or outfit or toy, I am soooo spoiled!

~ I didn't understand the whole Halloween thing but this Kitty costume sure makes me cute!

~ I can STAND by myself ( I can even take a few steps if I think no one is watching me!)

~ I laugh SO loud that Ta Ta says she is going to get kicked out of her apartment because of me!

~ I don't like going to long without seeing my Ta Ta. If it is more then a week, she is not allowed to leave my sight for the first day or I will SCREAM!!!!

Moving Update and Other News

Well folks this is the second morning of waking up in my very own apartment. I love it! I am like an entire 5 mins from work! I can leave my house at 7:45 and be EARLY!!!!!! Gotta love it!

Also some bad news before the good, my laptop is not even worth throwing away right now, so that means no new pics for a while until Jus can fix it :( but I am still taking pics with hope of ONE DAY show you all my progress.

Now onto the progress!!!!
Bed, Check
Dresser, Check
Sofa, Check
Moved Massive TV into bedroom, Check
Entertainment Center, BROKEN!!
Moved Massive TV from bedroom to living room, Check
Unpacked boxes = only 2 left!!!
Dining Table = Hopefully completed by next weekend!!!!!

Wow I have accomplished a lot these last two days, still not the the point where I can just sit and relax and enjoy it just yet but I dont expect more then a weeks work left!!!

The Bertrand (aka Crazy Drunk Coonass) Family Reunion is this weekend at Crooked Creek Campground, so please pray for all of the other innecent campers who just have the bad luck of having to be around my entire family. LOL I hopefully will be sober enough to take pics this year as well. Hopefully this year will be just as much fun as last years!! Good times!!

Moving In!

Ok so I signed the lease, got the keys, unloaded a load, and now I am counting down until I head out to Arnaudville to make my next and FINAL load of "crap". I am taking before, during and after pics so I will be able to share that soon (hopefully).

The main problem I am having right now is finding a place for the MASSIVE television and stand that I bought for Justin. I should not have told him but I did and now I have NO place to put it. Maybe after everything else is in I will find place for it.

The apartment is VERY clean and I like that. Nothing yet to complain about. Hopefully we will be able to keep it that way.

I have my family reunion this weekend so hopefully my unpacking will happen quickly so next weekend I can just enjoy living in my new place!!

Christmas Shopping Early/ Bargain Queen Srikes Again

Yes you have heard it hear. Talor is Christmas shopping in October. With 82 shopping days until Christmas I already have two presents bought.

First allow me to explain how I buy gift. FUNCTION!!!!! If you cant use it at least 10 times in a month you dont need it! And tradition has it that I am the only one who buys my dad's clothes. Not that no one is actually capable, it is just when other people (aka my mom and dad) do they tend to get the oddest clothes that I would not want seen on my dad.

So off to JCPenny I went to buy a shirt and maybe a tie if they had a nice one since he needs a new one. When I walk in they are having a huge sale on men's wear. Long story short I bought a white dress shirt and tie(birthday) and another dress shirt(Christmas) for a grand total of $60!!! Each shirt was originally $40/each and the tie $32. The shopping god is smiling down on me!

Then today a retired co-worker comes in and askes if anyone would want to buy a Big Screen TV and Stand for$200. I thought there is no way so I bought it for Justin's Christmas gift....he better like it!!

Well off to the daily grime.

Bargain Queen Speaking...

Who knew that I, Talor, could be so lucky!! I needed to find a sofa and dining set (I am still working on a coffee table but necessities first). So I start roaming the internet. I came across a few that were decent but too expensive. So I went to JcPenny's website and found the EXACT table i wanted. And it was ON SALE!!! Orignally $500 on sale for $200!!! And they will deliver!

So I call my insurance agent to get renters insurance that I "know" is going to be astronomical right?! WRONG!!! It is only about ten dollars a month and because of multi-policies I get a DISCOUNT on top of that!!! WOO HOO!!

Okay my day cant be going any better right....WRONG! On my way home I see a big sign outside of Home Furniture saying ONE DAY SALE. Well we know that all those furniture places say that all the time, but last time they had a big sale is when I bought my bed and saved a bundle. So I stop in, what is the harm of looking right? So I walk in and with in 15mins I see the exact couch I wanted ON SALE!!! It was $985 only at most dealer but here it was $385 with a 5 year warranty and delievery. The pillows are different and it is only the sofa but you get the idea.

I also think that I have convenced my dad that we can move EVERYTHING in one load! I'll let you know how that works out.

Who Knew Moving Could be soooo Stressful?!

So as you may be able to tell by the title I AM MOVING!!!!! I am soo excited!! I have to go on the tenth and fill out the final paper work and get my keys.....eeeekkkk!!! Then reality hit me when I started packing. I have alot of CRAP. I mean I have some nice things and things I will def use in the new place but I can collect a bunch of meaningless "stuff" in 12years. I dont even remember packing to move to this house so I am clueless.

No matter how many boxes I pack up it still seems like I have soooo much left. I am trying not to bring things I will never use. I only have 650Sqft to work with and I dont want to feel cluttered.

I have scratched a couple things off of my list. I got renter's insurance, I am in the process of changing my address for my bills and bank, and I have ordered a dinning set. Now all I have is 5 billion other things to get done and continue with school and work. I also have to find time to study for a test and work on a group project.



I AM SOOOOOO STRESSED AND OVERWHELMED!!!!

Is this normal? I hope everything settles down by the end of October so I can enjoy my freedom.

Confusion?!

I have been calling for an apartment in Youngsville. I love it but there are none available. The one bed, one bath is all I would need. It is small enough for one and only one. So where does the confusion lie? Justin.

All of a sudden out of the clear blue sky he is "considering" moving to Lafayette. So of course he wants to move in. The pessimistic person I am is saying NO, the Catholic woman that I am is saying NO, but my heart is saying "hey is it really that bad?" So I considered making a Pro/Con list. But I still know no matter what my parents would never forgive me for "living in sin". It is too soon for us to think about getting married, and I DO want to be closer to him but I just dont know.

The one bedroom would be WAY too small for two ppl and all of our STUFF, so that would mean looking for a 2 bedroom that, if he would leave, I could not afford on my own. :sigh: I am stuck and dont know what to do?!

Patiently waiting

Ok not to brag but I have the GREATEST man of all time. (right, like you never heard anyone say that) Friday night I left work and floored it to Lake Charles to suprise him with a "date night". Why you may ask, well allow me to explain myself.

I dont know why but last week I was a totally witch with a ''b''. I dont know why but I know it was me and he never mentioned anything until Wednesday night. And all he asked was if everything was alright. I told him I just havent been feeling myself lately but that I really was not mad at him and I was sorry for taking it out on him. So being the crazy romantic that I am, I started planning.

I already had plans promised to Kendi for Sunday so it would have to be Saturday evening since he usually works Saturdays now. Well I decided that I could go Friday night hang out at the apartment while he was at work and have supper Saturday night and leave late Saturday. You know my plans can never work out as planned so everything got turned around.

Jeremy, Justin's old friend and former boss, called him to see if he wanted to make extra money by working for him Saturday and Sunday. Of course Jus is not going to turn down good $$ so he planned on waking at the crack of stupid and driving into Franklin were the job was being done on location. So we were still able to have our date night.

I never fails that every time I go to LC to visit him we always wind up at Wal Mart within the first hour of me being there. There is always something he or I need/want. So after our traditional shopping trip, we went back to the house to get dressed up. We then headed out to Outback. We ate WAY to much but had a nice time anyways.

I missed not seeing or talking to him this weekend but it was worth it for him.

Weekend Update!!

I apologize in advanced for this one being either long and/or hard to follow.

To start off the weekend I picked up Elly Friday afterwork. She had been eaten up by mesquitos (which I know I will be blamed for) when her mom and her were waiting for me to pick them up downtown. When I got to Mark's office she was waiting outside with Elly, a diaper bag, and stroller.....no car seat. Sorry but I am one of those people who will honk my horn and wave you down if you kid is not strapped in correctly. She tells me that Elly does not like her carseat and prefers riding on your lap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cursed her out and then told her either she take the bus or I would go get the carseat and come back! She obviously did not want to have the baby all weekend so I got the carseat and went back to get them.

She had a very good night, she only woke up for her normal feedings. Why a 7mt old still can not go more then 3 hours without a bottle at night worries me but maybe it is normal for some. I got a good bit of cleaning done so I am not complaining.

Saturday was my Premier Party. I did not have nearly as many people come as I had planned but that serves me right for coinsiding with football right? oh well next time. Even with the few orders I got some pretty good stuff for FREE!!!! Gotta love that word right.

After the party I hurried and packed waited for Elly to awake from her nap and drove to Lake Charles. Elly played for most of the trip and I only had to pull over once to give her a quick bottle. Of course she fell asleep about 15 mins before we got there but really wasnt cranky when she woke up to get her out. He was suprised but not upset that she was there.

We went to Wal Mart and cooked burgers Saturday night. He played with her and of course I forgot the camera. They were just tooo cute together though. She was very well behaved too. She did not sleep very well though. She was up every hour to hour and a half. He got up sometimes but I got up everytime, maturnal instinct I guess. On top of that she got up at 6:30am, played for 1 1/2 hours and then went down again for another hour. Justin and I fell back asleep for the nap but were still tired for the most part.

We had a good day though. She played with everyone who came to the apartment. Most of them were from France so when they would speak in french to her she would laugh and giggle til she couldnt breath any more.(i really wish I would have had my camera). We, Elly and I, headed home about 5pm last night with another good ride home. Actually a great ride she slept the entire trip!!!

Well I have jury duty tomorrow so I better get back to work. :)

RANT

so after a day like i have had (well the week rather) it is safe to say that when i do have children they will more then likely be home schooled. they will also have a room surrounded by concrete. there are sooo many sick people out there!!!! you can not watch the news anymore with out getting completely depressed!

on article was about how 32 students were arrested from one high school. it also contained in the article how many middle school aged children were arrested. this is just from the schools that is not those picked up off of the school campus. how safe are our kids really? and where may i ask are parents????

i am a firm believer in that some people who have kids should never have done it!!! they have no clue how to raise a child. they let them run rampid through the streets at all hours of the night and they are the first to complain when their child gets into trouble. about how the laws are unfair and how they have no idea when their child leaves bc they are "old enough to make their own decisions" well let me tell you a 13 pregeant girl did not get that way by her parents keeping an eye on them!!! 13, 13, 13!!!!! how in the hell do you not know if your 13 is having sex?! She is toooo young to be anywhere by herself to begin with.

i really hate it when parents try to be the "cool" parents and are not going to bug and bother there child about where they are going or where they have been. You can still be cool and not bug. Simply ask, "johnny around what time do you think you will be back?" or "susie who's house are you going to?" at that age they shouldnt even have friends that drive so you are the other parent should be driving and picking them up. and ask if the other parents will be home.

set rules for your children too. rules they must follow even when they are not in your house. teach them how to conduct and respect themselves and others. if you are not confident they can do this DONT LET THEM GO!!! you are the parent and they are 13!!! trust me if you dont handle them now they will walk all over you more when they are older.

start when they are 2 and 3 to say "yes ma'm and yes sir". simple right? some people have no concept of manners even as adults!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


and another thing... if you have a drug habit that is your problem, not mine. DO NOT bring a carton of cigs filled with drugs and expect me to not report your a$$ to the police.

also dont expect any respect from me after you do something STUPID!!!

***ok im done now***

Update

Just to keep you posted.... I have had only one phone call from Justin and that was Tuesday!!! Kory broke the computer so we dont even have a myspace relationship!!! Thank God I get to go over Saturday night!!! and I will spend the day with him on Sunday. I miss him so much!

I have a suprise for him, however. Last weekend he kept mentioning "when we have children...." WHOOOOO buddy! Wedding first children later!!! So I am bring Elly along for the trip. This way he can see how "good" parents take care of their children and are actually around them. You see his sister has a 4 yr old but I have never once seen her with either parent!! Hello!!! who has this kid?!!! We will do and go all the places we need to but with the baby in tow. *evil grin* This way he may think twice before metioning it agian.

Dont get me wrong I want children, lots of them, just not now. And when I do I want my Husband to help out with simple things and to know what I am going to be going through.

Justin was in and out of his mother's home and lived with several family members throughout his life. He NEVER lived with his dad. I dont want him to be a dad like his was.

ok back to work maybe i will continue later :)

Warning: this on is going to be EVERYWHERE...hope you can keep up!

First off I am not in a good mood bc my bf's WONDERFUL sister decided it was ok to run up his minutes on his cell until it is shut off and now has to pay $236.78 to turn it back on!!!!!!! Oh I cant wait to give her a piece of my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On the other hand I spent a good bit of time with him this weekend. I went over Saturday night after Katie's party and came back Sunday night. We had a good weekend. He never left my side!! I guess it is true...absence does make the heart grow fonder :)

We picked up his younger brother, Kory, and went visit Mr. Glenn, their dad, at the rehab center in LC Sunday afternoon. We where having a very nice visit. He introduced us to several of his friends and supporters he has met since being in there. All were very nice guys and nurses. He looks good but it is very different to not see him drunk. It is very nice actually.

Now here is the twist!!! After sitting there Kory leans over and tells me that a guy keeps staring at me?! So I turn and he looks familiar but I dont like to be rude so I avoided the whole thing and cuddled closer to Justin so maybe he would notice we were together and stop staring at me. Then all of a sudden Mr Glenn introduced us to him. "Tim come see. I would like you to meet.......", this is where I panic. Tim!! Tim!!! Security Guard from HIE, Tim!! Drug head who left me the week of graduation, TIM!!!!! OMG!!!! He is in REHAB!!!! with my bf's dad!!! Small world, huh?!

Justin could see that I was VERY uncomfortable. Tim kept hitting on me right there infront of Justin. He was just going on and on about how he is sorry he stopped calling and how it was all because of drugs, and how he never meant to hurt me, and how much he has thought about me and how he missed me, and how he wants to move back to Lafayette when he gets out and maybe we could hang out again. That was it!! That was the last thing Justin could take. He and I were trying to ignor him but we had had enough!!!

We left and went to Wal Mart were Kory acted the ass!!! I swear I do not want a 17 year old son!!!! We did manage to buy some really nice shirts and a pair of shorts and shoes for Justin...which he needed badly!!! I also bought some things that a girl needs in a bachelor pad...lol. I bought my own bath soap, bath ball, shampoo, conditioner, and deoderant. Come on I was on a deserted island when I am there!!!! I need some estrogen around me!!!

I also managed to give Justin a long overdue haircut....I will have pics later. Yes I,Talor, cut hair without blood shed!!! It actually came out very nice! I like it and so did everyone else!!

Kory was busted looking at porn on Justin's computer BY ME!!!! Oh did I get on his ass!!! I told him if he wanted to do it fine, but not were I could see, and not on someone else's computer. Justin was PISSED to say the least(at least now we know why he had so many viruses) CHILDREN!!!!!!

Overall, though, it was a nice weekend. I have to say to that between his dad and Tim I dont think Justin in such as big of a hurry to move to Florida!!! and that makes me happy!!!

$$$$$$$$

Well as you may have guest I did not win the big powerball over the weekend nor did i make a million at the casino but I did find my niche. HORSE RACING!!! Wow!! I am pretty good I may say....even though i was too chicken to place too much money on my bets I walked away with $10 after slots, drinks(alcoholic and non), food, and horse racing. Not bad considering I only put in $4!!!!! Gotta love being 21!( for now at least)

Short and Sweet....

This weekend will be fun (hopefully). Tonight I am going to go to Justin's and cook supper and play "house wife" like Thomas calls me. I hope to also get some swimming in at his apt since the pool is right there.

Saturday my grandmother, her "friend", and I are hitting the casino!!! WOO HOOO!!! I dont know why I am excited, I have bought 3 scratch offs in 1wk and have won nothing. I have given up on the scratch off game (the main reason I bought them was to make my purchase exactly $10. ...lol) I know, I am weird. But I have $6.50 to spend(i hear you laughing) so I wont feel bad if i leave with nothing.


I will let you know if i win big.......................................................lol!

well....

My birthday party was great. Everyone keeps telling me how much fun they had. I was a little stressed bc I was trying to play the good host and talk to everyone equally but apparently I didnt. I felt like at the beginning of the evening I never connected with Justin, not avoiding him just never made it in his direction. So at the later part of the evening I made it a point to cuddle and stroke his ego a bit. He said he completely understood and I was ok. Then today (after being depressed since Sunday) I read a comment saying that I was pushing him away!!! I really would hate to think that is true since I spent my entire day Saturday and most of the morning Sunday with him.

I dont know what is wrong with me lately. I have been in a depressed mood since Sunday night. I cant seem to shake it. I dont know if is bc he is thinking about moving to Cocoa Beach, or if it is just me, or if it is us being apart, or if it is my financial stress. Either way I need to shake this depression!!!!!!

Sorry it is so meaningless today....just cant put all my thoughts together:(

Refreshing!!

Wow!! It is amazing what one night of good sleep can do for the mind and the soul! I feel soooo much better then I did yesterday! I am awake and EXCITED about tonight and tomorrow. Yes I still have a "to do" list but it is a simple, organized one that I can tackle. I am hoping to have a good night tonight with my sisters and a GREAT day tomorrow with my friends!!!!!

Update

With the end of my twentith year coming to a close I have been very stressed. Stressed financially, emotionally, at work, at home and most saddening with Justin. I find my self snapping at him and saying, "look I will just call you later!" I miss him so much but he and I talked it is not him. I am just SSSOOOO busy and it seems like I just cant get a moment to sit and breathe. Thank goodness Sarah and I went to get our nails down yesterday! OH it was a much needed 45min breath, even though my night was still horrible it could have been worse right?

I just want to be by myself and sleep!!!! I feel soooo tired all the time now!!! I think it is bc I am so busy. I would love nothing more to go to Justin's Friday night just to be nexted to him and have a good night's sleep but on the other hand I want to spend some time with my family on for my bday. We will eat dinner Friday night and watch movies when we get back. My sisters and I will have a small luau just for us since they can not come on Sat. I think it will be nice even though it is not alone time it is queit time.

Saturday will consist of a min of 5 hours of road time!!!!!!!!!!!!!That is just being on the road time. That is not even tackling the "TO DO" list that is growing faster by the minute! I just cant wait to the party but in another way I just cant wait until it is all said and done. Stupid I know but that is just how I feel right now.

I am excited dont get me wrong but now is when I start getting pessimistic and all this work piling up is not helping!!! At least I have GREAT friends that I get to celebrate with this Saturday!!!!

Let them have CAKE

Ok so I go to get a "head start" on my shopping for the Luau/Tiki party. The baker had told me to get cake decorations and bring them to her at the beginning of this week. I go to Party Time which is closest to my office. When I get there they had NO luau cake toppings but several others that I did not need. So I call Party City on Johnston. They said they had "plenty" so I start the AWEFUL commute to the other side of Lafayette at 5:30pm.

I get to Party City(were I had found an entire section last week) only to see them BOXING and STORING it until next season!!!!!! WTH!!!!!! They are making way for Halloween stuff! IT IS AUGUST PEOPLE!!!! I finally sweet talked some asst manager into holding some of the items for me until Wed. The rest he said will be in clearance. I guess this has its pros and cons. But what is that you ask? What did I get to go ontop the cake? NOTHING. Well there.

So I call Sarah in a mass PANIC. I can barely hear her and she could barely hear me. (gotta love technology) My phone finally disconnects(so i thought). I look at it to check the time a few minutes later and realize it is off. It cannot be dead since I charged it all day. So I go to turn it on. It does its HELLO MOTO thing but that is it. No service, no screen saver, no backlight, NOTHING. I can not call out and obviously no one can call me. I am even more upset.

I left Party City and I was walking to my car when I realized Hobby Lobby is practically nexted door!! So I walk in EXCITED!!! only to find NOTHING but Spiderman cake decorations. Time to get crafty. I walked up and down the entire store looking for inspiration when it finally hit me.

About 8-9 months ago Justin S and I had went to the Highland games in Jackson, LA and saw a display of the most breathtaking model trains. I know crazy but these were SSSSOOOOOOO detailed and took YEARS to create.

So I RAN to the modeling department and sure enough Palm Trees!!!!!!!! Hey I am sure she can use this and then I began imaging going to Hawaii and for some unknown reason thought seashells. So I grabbed a bag of the cutest ones I could find and ran with it.

By this time the bakery was closed so I gave it to the store manager with my name and contact #. Just incase she can not use this or needs more.

I sure hope the rest of my week gets better!

Catch up!!

Warning several topics in one!!!

First off I have the most amazing BF ever!!!! He is soo sweet (goofy and nerdy) but loveable!!! I had a fantastic day with him Saturday. I didnt want to leave but the drive tends to seem longer at 1am. But I will see him again this Sat.

Which brings me to topic #2. MY BIRTHDAY!!! I can not beleive i will be 21yo on Sat. It seems like yesterday I was starting Kindergarden!!!! OMG how time flies...yet seems to drag all at the same time. I am hoping to have a FANTASTIC weekend. Sarah is the BEST. I could not have come up with such an amazing plan and better then that I am raiding...lol..her house :) I LOVE YA SARAH!!!

The party will be much needed after this week(#3) I will be SUPER BUSY this week. My to do and to buy list is now a full loose leaf sheet (back and front). But it will be allll worth it I know. Tonight is my only "FREE" night but i have so much energy in preporation that I am eagerly looking for something to do or someone to bug. If all else fails I will go get Elly. I miss my little baby.

Tomorrow night is "Tiz's" Bday so we are having a wine and cheese party at his apt. Wed is payday so I will buy him a gift (and give it to him at my party...he knows im poor) and buy all the other items i need for the party. I will then have to bring the cake decorations to the baker so she can do the final designing of the cake and get started. Sometime this week I NEED to get my nails done and maybe even a pedicure!!!! (hey it is my bday!!! no ones feet can look like mine!!!...lol) I also need to get my eyebrows waxed. Friday is family dinner and SATURDAY is sooooooooooo going to be the best!!!! Busy but the best!!!!

Whoa is anybody as exhausted as I am just reading this? Until next time. BYE BYE!!!!

Home Sweet What?!

I mentioned before that I was bitten by that radioactive moving spider again and I took some time yesterday and played around on the internet. I came across a little apartment complex in Youngsville. Garden Heights and the rent is only $375/mt.....it has to be in the ghetto right?....WRONG it is in the middle of a BEAUTIFUL subdivision....they also have a neighborhood watch program....which i like being a single (living alone) female in a new town!!! AND it is about 1hour away from my PARNENTS!!! Close enough to visit but far enough for freedom!!! And affordable!!!! My only problem is going to be with Slemco.

Back in 2005 when I was engaged to Daniel, he was moving in to his apartment and was called offshore. I being the "good wife-in-training" wanted him to come home to a complete apartment filled with all his belonging and electricity. So I put it under my name since he was not there. Needless to say he never paid the rest of the installation fee or a bill(to my knowledge) so I may not even be able to get Electricity!!! I dont know what to do about that?!

The complex also has a BRAND new pool that just finished a month ago, a gym, and onsite laundry with NEW washers and dryers. I am excited but nervous....Hopefully God will lead me in the direction he thinks I should go! I trust him!!

Monday...bla

So it is Monday and I only have half a cup of coffee down but here it goes anyways ;)

Justin and I are now on the same page! I tend to have very low self esteem so I talked to him about everything that was on my mind. He is just as amazing as he was 5 years ago but now is more mature. I cant wait to see how this keeps going. We are both working full time jobs and going to school an hour and a half apart from each other, not to mention my parents are the nosiest people, so our contact will be minimal but I am starting to think that will be a good thing. Dont get me wrong I would love to see him everyday but I think that it willl be for the best in the long run.(only time will tell)

In other news I was bitten by the "moving out" bug again. After my birthday I am seriously starting to save every penny I can. If you have any saving tips or budget tips please let me know. I would like to own but have no problem renting. I JUST WANT OUT!!! I will be 21 in less then 2 weeks and I still live with mommy and daddy!!!! It sucks!!!

Well that is enough for now!!!!

The Wonderful Weekend!!

It has taken me a while to find the time to write this blog but it is sooo worth it!! I went meet Justin this weekend for the first time in 4 years!!! And it went GREAT!!! I truely didnt realize how much I missed him until I looked in his eyes!!! So this is how it went...

When i got there he had just gotten out of the shower :) (because he had gotten off of work later than anticipated) so i got to meet his neighbor (Kylie) while waiting for him to come to the door. I had talked to her on the phone before...she is cool...i think she is going to be a good friend also. She told me about a party they were going to be having at another friend of there's apt down stairs and asked us if we wanted to go... Justin(having gotten to the door and into our conversation) just told her we would see how our night progressed(i mean we have 4 years to catch up on)...and she totally understood. The other neighbors...which are all friends and mostly guys did not...one even invited a girl that has the biggest crush on Jus over!!!! Everyone was mad at him...well he did it just so he could get with her friend that was with her. Needless to say she, the girl that likes Justin, had no idea I was there or who I was so she got a shock when they got to the house.

But I am getting ahead of my self in the time frame. I got to his house and went inside after meeting Kylie. It is a very nice apt for 3 guys living there. Very simple obviously. None of the furniture matches, small tv, but big stereo system, computer system, and a Play Station2 ...typical batchleor pad...lol. Very clean though. We sat and talked, then we went to Wal Mart to pick up some more food and wine,because he had gotten off of work late and hadnt gone shopping before(men...lol). But that was fine with me, it got us out of the apt and away from the trail of guys that kept coming in and out of the apt dispite kylie and justin's attempts of telling them just to leave us alone for an hour or two. We came home and ate (with out letting them know we had gotten back...lol.) It was very nice,but I didnt want to keep him from his friends so we went downstairs to Greg's apt. Hung out for a few mins then everyone wanted to go up to Jus's apt to play the ps2...so we went. That is when Paul asked if Shana and Christin could come over(Shana is the one that has the crush)Justin said no (and so did everyone else b/c no one wanted him there let alone 2 of his friends) but he said that they were right outside. I told jus just to let them in, afterall who am I to tell him who can and can not go into his house?...I dont live there and we are not dating. When she got in and saw Jus sitting next to me with his arm around me I thought her head was going to spin off! She looked pissed! When I went to the kitchen she followed me, so Kylie followed her, she asked how long justin and I had been together. So i said"we are not...yet"...she went on to tell me how she had been trying for months to get with him and how i needed to back off. So i mentioned that I had him 5 years before and I dont have to work that hard bc i can just look in his eyes and see that flame for me still there...Kylie then told her that Justin would never go for someone like her....it was funny as hell!!!
Well about an hour after that everyone decided to go back down again, so jus and i stayed up stairs. We where having fun just talking in his room when Christin and Paul just busted in!!! She said "I'm sorry to interrupt but I was wondering when you were leaving so we can all go out?" Justin was pissed and I was no longer in a good mood and it being 1am I decided it was time for me to leave. He walked me out and kissed me goodnight and we talked on the phone from his driveway until i was in my bed...he was so embarrased and upset.

We have not gone one day with out talking since!! I forgot how WONDERFUL he is!! I mean dont get me wrong he is still a kid at heart and loves his games but I can totally deal with that again. We never had problems the first time we dated and the only thing now is distance but that actually will work in our favor with him and I both working full time and going to school.

Well enough for now...Until next time!!! Have a good day!!!

??????

OK. So I am finally not nervous about going meet Justin tomorrow(especially bc I know he is nervous too). But it is in a part of L.C. that i have never been in, I will be new meeting people for the first time, seeing him for the first time in 4 years and he will be seeing me also for the first time in 4 years. I know how much I have grown and changed in the past 53 months, I can only imagine how much he has changed as well. Not physically but we have both matured and had reality bite our asses. Have we grown the same? Does he care about the same things he use to? Things I really need to know. I know I am a better person (on the inside) then I was at 16 and 17 but I also know that I have made some major changes in my life too. Will he accept that? Has he done the same? Also I have gained a good 50+ pounds since me and him broke up. (And he has lost it thank you) Will he still be attracted to me?

On top of all of this, only 3 people know that I am going which in a way makes it easier but harder. My mom loves to give her $0.02 in to every conversation we have. And if it is about a relationship I will be teased to no end. And she wonders why I never tell her anything, she doesnt take it like a mom should. She takes it as a freshman in a catholic high school would about seeing a penis for the first time... She just giggles and points and makes a mockery of my feelings. How can I tell her that I am going meet some one who broke my heart in high school? She will laugh until her death over it if it would not work out. That is just how she is. She is my mom and I love her but I think it is best if she doesnt know everything.

I know the cliche': "if you love them let them go, if they come back then you know" may be true in some cases, but I am not about to put all of my eggs in one basket. We will see how Saturday goes and take it from there. I am not expecting a relationship but I wouldnt be against it. I just have that concrete wall up around my heart from Daniel, that I cant bring myself to tear it down just yet......PATIENCE!!!!!!

OK enough blogging...I have to get back to work! WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Here I go.....

First off, I have been too scared to step on the scale the past couple of days. Dont ask just me I guess. This weekend was ok. Friday my girls came home from camp!!! The fam went eat chinese and we just hung out all night.

Saturday, Kendi and I went bring Brooke to Aveda and play with Elly. Then that night we went watch UL's production of Grease! It was GREAT!!! Very well down!!! Who knew we had that much talent around here....we are truely lucky.

Sunday we flea bombed our house since Elly was at her house(just for safety's sake). So while that was going on in the house...The Wyatt family went to a fundraising BINGO in town for our Troops!!! We had a good time. Laila, by the way, has always been addicted to the game. We found out while there that they play BINGO for money every friday night at the VFW. So now you know where I will be...lol.

Monday was a crazy day in itself. I really need to get a work out in but I got a call from my Hight School sweetheart. We stayed on the phone until 2:30am this morning....man I'm tired. But it was worth it. We learned a lot about each other from what we have experienced over the past 4 years. We both feel that we did the maturing we needed to do. I am really nervous about seeing him this Saturday. Who knows how that will turn out?

OK enough for now I need to get back to work!!

Bitter/Day3(morning)

Ok...So yesterday got shot to shit!!!! My boss asked if I wouldnt mind staying after work a little to wait for one of our employee's wives to pick up an check that is in his box. I said no problem since I had plenty of work to do and Curves is less then a mile from my office. So 5pm I waited....5:30....and waited...6pm...and waited...finally at 6:30 I left!!! The only reason I had stayed is bc I know she is pregnant and "needed to get the money today". Dont you know it is 9:15am and she has not even called or come by!!!!!

I guess the main reason I am upest is that I missed my "date" with Curves. I was sooo set on going!

Dont get me wrong I'm happy that I was able to get a great deal of work accomplished that was dumped on my desk a 4 but it is the principle of the thing! If she was not going to come she could have at least called. She knew I was staying late for her!

But in better news Kendi and Laila are coming home from camp today so that makes me HAPPY! I miss them when they are gone. Saturday we are going see UL's production of Grease!!! I am so excited!!! They have no idea!!! I was the mean sister and told them that the production was in June and we had missed it! I think they will be excited!!!

Well that is it for now! Hopefully today will be better!!!

Day 2

Ok so here I am, Day 2. First of all I feel much better today then I did yesterday. No headache!!! Yeah for me!!! Also(believe it or not) I am about 90% caught up!!! I cant believe it myself! That is about as good as it gets in my line of work.

Yesterday I worked out at Sarah's house. That was actually soo much fun. I could let out my aggression at the skinny bitch on the video without judgement =} We also just sat and talked after which was really nice. It is good to visit with friends. I wish I could find more time to do that now a days. Just slow down and enjoy life.

Some of my friends are ...how can I put this nicely....needy. Which is fine but they have to realize that just bc I dont call you every single day, it does not mean I am angry with you or have some "better" friend. I planly just did not have time!!!! I should not have to stroke you ego 7 days a week!

Ok next topic: Sarah is visiting family today so it is a curves day. *mental note call Sarah about tanning* I am acutally ok with that.

Well I guess that is it for today, back to the tuna wrap and water for lunch.

Mood Swing/ The first post

I got tipped off about this sight by one of my friends and I will most likely use it as a personal journal for me and only a select few readers...this is actually making my day a little better.

Ok, for the longest time I have been happy, and for the most part I still am. I mean look at me. I am turning 21 in exactly 1 month today, I have the BEST friends in the world!!, I have a great job and boss, my co-workers are the sh!t, and my best friend since i was born and I are starting to get closer agian. It truely is amazing how some friends may come and go but a small handful stay with you forever!! Not that the others arent important it just makes the handful that more special! Anyway off topic:

I actually went back to Curves yesterday! Man, it had been months and it felt so good to start up again...but i did the worst thing! I stepped on the scale this morning!!! AAAAHHHH!!! I cant believe I weigh this much!!! 219.5!!! I really need to stay focused onto some sort of routine!! Either curves, or walking, or tapes...I need to do something. I am turning 21 and feel as if I look like SH!T. I have been watching what I eat but I never ever really did eat HORRIBLE. I dont really care for junk food...so why do I gain weight just by looking at food!!! I dont want to be skinny I just want to look healthy. Some women are big boned too but look damn good...why not ME?

Last week I did something for me. I bought a past, present, future ring...not only for the bling....but to serve as a reminder to me. For all the misery I have had in my past, Were I am today, and where I want to be. I am hoping this works. I know it may be a bit stupid, but at least I have a plan (or plot).

I also want to FINALLY get in the tanning beds. I need to not look so pasty. Maybe that will help my self image a little.

I also start school in Aug. (which reminds me I need to drop off the tuition). I am really excited about that! That is one of my mountains I had to cross with the Daniel aftermath. But I have made it to the top of that moutain and hopefully I will take on and conquer many more.

I have a hug headache this morning, too! Sorry this blog is sort of scatter brained....but at least I got this off my chest!